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(the picture is my ghost in my hamburger school. Taken partly by my dad, partly by my mum; combined by my dad.)

The last post of 2012. Overall it was a very good year for me (a struggly start maybe, but it's all forgotten).

I think 2012 has been mostly about falling in love for me. With people, with places, with thoughts, with sounds, voices, words, letters, work, feelings, dreams.. Little love-affairs. I've been trying to enjoy them for as long as they would last; a few hours, a few weeks, sometimes longer. With falling in love always comes a little heart-ache and sadness, but that's okay. I've felt at home and completely happy so much more often than I ever did before. (maybe not when I was a baby, but kids are so much easier to please).

I can't be bothered to make lists of things I did, places I saw, people I met, movies I watched, etc. Although I've tried. But I met so many many amazing people this year and I'm very happy about that and I don't really know how many of those will read this, but if you do; I'm sending you a lot of love. And it's coming from my toes. That means I mean it. ♥
I hope you who read this, will have a wonderful new year with a lot of love in anykind of way.

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Oh Christmasholidays. You know. Staying in bed forever, making cards and books, drinking coffee, eating cookies, dreaming of other places, watching documentaries, listening to top2000.. And of course; seeing friends and family for more coffee and food!
How are you holidays? 

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I miss hamburg. Watching millions of Bored to Death episodes. Germans are so weird. Who would put a giant lion in his garden? It freaks people, like me, out in the middle of the night. 

Ah and merry christmas. I hope it's a good one for you :)

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Zurückbleiben bitte. Nächster Halt: Hauptbahnhof.
Übergang zu allen U- und S-Bahn Linien, sowie zum Nah- und Fernverkehr.
Ausstieg Links.

The funny thing is. I can't remember a winter in which I didn't feel utterly depressed all the time. For the first time in forever I have been mostly very happy. Tomorrow very early in the morning, before the sun is even close to rising, I will be on the train back home. I have a bittersweet feeling about it. I've been starting to feel so completely at home here. The last few weeks it felt as if a huge warm comforting german blanket full of exciting adventures and interesting people, has been draped over me and I don't want to leave the blanket. It's like getting out of bed when outside it's cold. 

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Liebe und toastbrot.
// Rosa / Rot sehen. 

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Cozy flatdays, but I miss my cuddlecave. When will it be proper summer again?

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 Autumn Orange. Mostly in Hamburg, but also a little bit of my favourite Bulgarian in Eindhoven.
The last picture is the street of my school. It doesn't really look half as magical now that the trees have lost all their beautiful colours. The white of the snow fits better with grey bunkers and big empty streets.. Luckily there is enough of this as well in Hamburg.
(These cold days are also very good for burning candles, bedroomdancing and doing crafty things dressed in warm sweaters)

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Bruce Neumann, coloured pencil drawings & birthday-outfit made by my mum!

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The sweetest birthday-morning (photo taken by flatmate Paul), stalking on Goethe and the Autumn windowview. From the inside looking out because the sun may shine, but the temperature is mostly too low for this cat. 

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Today we celebrated sinterklaas. It was a lot of fun as always and there were many great presents and poems! It really is my favourite holiday ever ever ever. Tomorrow my girlgang is coming over for part two!
I gave my parents a drawing of my brother and I. He doesn't really have pink hair and neither of us actually wear eyeshadow but we do have freckles and glasses! 

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Nightly stalking. People in small spaces.
My downstairsneighbour feels like a friend because I always look at him when he's working and sometimes he looks back and then we wave and smile and pretend nothing happened.

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Being (at) home in Hamburg. Neatly organized breakfast, amateur haircuts, importing Dutch traditions for German boys. And wooden floors! (one of my favourite things in this house. perfect for bedroomdancing)

Maybe some Hamburgian would like to adopt me as their cat so I can stay in this city forever. Please?

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Hairy cats, lost bunnies and locked up dogs in Hamburg.
ps thank you for your nice birthdaywishes. It was a good day.

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I'm 21 now. meow!
(Our flat is in a constant state of celebration)

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This week was filled with stacks of books, "unheimliche" ghoststories, discussions on art and life, dimly-lit smokefilled rooms, (bedroom)dancing, goldenrimmed-porcelain-cups filled with wine, the last golden leaves, German puzzles, cats, magic moments and beautiful people.
Next week I'll be 21, which means I will be officially a grown-up. But as long as my days still feel like they come from fairytales and short stories in books with yellow pages, I won't feel too old. 

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Cats! Katten! Katzen! 

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Dusty scans and lazy mornings that stretch out into lazy afternoons and lazy nights.  

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My first mail in Hamburg was very exciting because it was a SOVA-mail from Martin, right after the release-party where I got the fancy bag. And this issue is an especially cool one because Synchrodogs are on the cover and there are lots of really great artists in it. Check it out for yourself! You can get your copy now, for only 10 euro in the bookshop! Or you can get the poster (photo of me showing the poster - skirt not included. made by me!), for only 3 euro! (I hope you read this in a tell-sell kind of voice, because that's how I wrote it. If not. Read it again with the voice.)
Today I got four envelopes in the mail. That is really pretty exciting isn't it! I still don't know how the postman gets into the building, and actually if you do know, don't tell me, because I kind of like having a few mysteries in my building.

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Some drawings I did of Salmer fra kjøkkenet, myself and myself as a cat. I'm always a bit too lazy / scared to finish a drawing completely.

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Hamburg favourites: word (digga!) and building

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Hamburg under construction.

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Finally met my professor today. It was really nice. I'm very much looking forward to this coming semester. I don't think I can get bored by this school. Just walking through her halls, or going to the toilet, is exciting here.